Its that time of the year. And the Goodmama Gang is knee deep in Christmas. This season is always so FUN-but incredibly crazy. Add to it being the BUSIEST time of the year for hubby at work PLUS this year-our darling daughter (our precious almost 6 month old)-has decided to go on a sleeping strike. I thought J Good’s salmon strike was annoying-but this is downright testing on our patience.
Sweet Samantha was an instant sleep/nap/routine success up until Thanksgiving. So Goodmama & Goodpapa are navigating the waters of parenting-learning our way-trying different techniques & praying a WHOLE lot. I really am learning to not be a person who says I will “never” do this or I will “always” do that. I will be honest, I am not sure what to do-but my heart just wants be a good mama. “Good” in the sense of following what I feel God is leading us to do in raising Samantha. Not “good” by how the world defines it. There is so much information out there in regards to ALL things parenting-actually SO much information that I feel between the lack of energy & focus- I am on info overload.
As I was running around the house the past couple of days, I found my self compiling every parenting resource I could grab at my finger tips. Books, Blogs, Googling random topics, Calling the Pediatrician (umm…hello, first time mother, yes, I just need re-assurance that my child isn’t crazy…), re-calling the Pediatrician (yes, I did this, yes, I did), calling fellow mama peers and pondering all the information in light of who I am as a mother, who we are as a family and who Samantha is as an individual. I was rushing, I am still rushing for the answer-the FIX all-the solution to raising the perfect child & becoming the perfect mama-I saw my Bible-it caught my eye-it kept catching my eye-and it keeps catching my eye-and I just starting crying. Tears-tears of trying to make it-figure it out-do it-all on my/our own. AGH.
Books are good, friends advice is so welcomed, and Blogs are the best. But His WORD is what I need. I need that inner strength-to keep on-keeping on. Why do I neglect it? Why do I think I will “get to it” when I have “gotten to everything” else?
I am still struggling to carve out the time, to choose His Word OVER the Real Housewives of Beverly Hills, wrapping presents, flipping through FB & ummm…sleeping?! But, my heart is there-the desire is demanding. I know how I feel once I have entered His Sanctuary-the peace-His presence-the calm the comes that in spite of life urging me to make the ” right choices”-He is there. He hasn’t left. He wants to help me make the decision. Because is saying I need HELP- I am admiting that I can’t do this on my own. That ME is not enough. He doesn’t need another latte to function. He doesn’t need a glass of wine to calm down. He is bigger & better and BEYOND what I could ever hope for and imagine. He is the REASON for this season.
In the midst of the hustle & bustle-one party to the next-may your heart be calmed but His presence, may you find those precious minutes to tap into His Word.
**I was going to post a little update on my “new/usual/trying to be consistent thing” regarding meal planning. Until, I realized, we literally have Christmas dinner/events every night this week with the exception of Monday night & Wednesday night. Monday night was hilarious-I BBQ’d in the rain. Wednesday night we had Cobb Salads. Back to Meal Plans once these holidays are over!